For the encouraging friend and brother who uses his time and energy to inspire the ones that he loves to live their lives to the fullest, I want to thank you for living fearlessly and for choosing to use your time to encourage others. You are a blessing and a treasure.
“Yella habibi, let’s go! I have time”
And so we drove away from the vibrant lights of Amman, far from the city streets, we drove.
As the city disappeared behind us, the road ahead widened.
The two of us, two friends who were not searching for anything but were merely filling time, drove beyond the noise to simplicity, to nature.
As the road swerved the dead sea was revealed to our right: a shimmering, black, vast carpet of water hidden by the darkness of the night.
A short time passed and we stepped out of the car to take a look.
The glimmering city lights opposite defined the distant hills of Jerusalem from the thick black sky.
And we looked up. There they were, in their thousands – stars.
Within a few minutes the world became so insignificant. The thoughts and questions that had consumed my mind for months were silenced.
All then my surroundings disappeared, it was just me.
I have never known a peace like that, so swift and sudden.
For the past few weeks questions had haunted me, thoughts on the past, feelings about the future.
Now, nothing seemed to matter.
I realized that the past, full of joy and triumph, mistakes and regrets, would always be the past.
As I stood, watching the stars, listening to the gentle music playing from the car, a shooting star ran through the sky.
I have seen a shooting star once before in my life, whilst sitting at the beach.
The star like a strange, reassuring, gentle whisper, reminded me of something I seem to forget so quickly.
God is with me.
Within seconds the shooting star had vanished.
Looking up, it was so hard to imagine how such a vast ray of beauty could merely be an accident or a chance.
That night, I felt held in the hands of someone greater than I could ever be. Held by someone far more knowledgeable than me. Held by God.
The designer of the universe, designed my heart.
He knows my weaknesses and failures, my strengths and my accomplishments. And he was there, with us.
He is there in the complicated and he is there in the simplicity.
It’s hard to put words to such a feeling.
Insignificant, yet still significant.
It is the feeling of knowing that your life is one of billions in this universe, yet your life is so perfectly unique and complex.
The feeling of empowerment and liberation was one that I will never forget, one I will always remember.